雖然在［不算超重要但關係自信心］的小考前，這麼自殺性的無視複習，
我的心情非常平靜...甚至滿愉悅的！
因為之前對台灣情況的無力感，有些平復。

台灣明明是個國家，是de facto 的事實，
偏偏法律上我們不是，ＵＮ更不算我們一份，這情況常常讓我覺得無力。
更會覺得，我這樣自國中就受西洋教育的人，
其實是怕死的，不和台灣分享一個命運，如何能自稱台灣人？

我自認，是沒辦法做到犧牲家人與自己的幸福，
如同之前為我們的自由打拼的先人一樣。
但台灣的民主，真的需要守護，
因此我為自己的無法參予感到無力。

面對許多中國留學生，也都是盡量避免討埨。
畢竟，我的看法又不能代表多數台灣人的看法，
公投的結果是 indecisive 因為太少人領票，
＂我們是想要獨立的＂如何能夠說的理直氣壯？

而討論「什麼是國家」簡直就像討論「什麼是愛」一樣的籠統。
最多，也不過進展到：
「因為我心裡就是覺得我不是中國人，
自然不希望成為中國的一部分，
所謂 identity 就是這麼回事，
I don't identify with China」

不過，在無意間讀到台灣派部落格後，
東看西看了一會兒，真的很開心的！
看到大家展現的活力，批判性，以及對台灣的熱愛都讓我很感動
雖然意見不盡相同，但這就是民主的可愛之處，
雖然愛台灣的方式不一樣，但重點是大家都愛著台灣，
其實說來說去，identity 就是一種共同的認同和歸屬感吧！

尤其是一個部落格的標題讓我我深感認同。

＂我想個做驕傲的台灣人＂

就只是這樣而已，我要的是一個尊嚴，可以抬頭挺胸的說＂這是我的國家＂的尊嚴！

我不希望以後自己後悔在英國時，和台灣的時事脫節，
所以現在，決定要多讀，多看，能出力就出力！

從寫下自己的心境開始！
ＹＡＹ！

Okey, so I will admit here my fandom is as capricious as young love XD

Recenly, I've been reading Harry Potter RHr fics and then switched to Lord of the Rings Faramir x Eowyn fics (don't ask, what I ship is ususally the obvious canon couples they WERE married anyway regarded as more obscure..), out of total randomness out of my control. Stark contrast in terms of relationship, but both drawn me in. A lot

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Rhr
I believe in trees. Because its obvious.

In most fanfictions these two are portrayed as bickering old couples or, as most people so explicitly put it (to which point I totally agree, most whole-heartedly,) two stubborn teenagers overwhelmed by sexual tension. Theirs is hte most colourful relasionship, tere are snide comments ("Know-it-all," Ron drawled teasingly.), tart sarcasm ("No Ron, I burnt the letter. Of course I replied!"), downright jealousy ("Krum?" Ron spat the word like venom.), then screaming shrieking bellowing and the rest. One word, very sensataional :)

Fics featuring Ron and Hermione grown up, though, is slightly different. This version of Ron is most likely a successful (most likely is an auror,) humorous, compose (ie no longer blushes when being taunt about Hermione) but still with a touch of cheekiness. Personally, I generally like these fics over the school fics. I mean, the movie and some of the fic Ron is becoming too quick-tempered and, fankly, stupid and cowardy for my liking. Makes you wonder just what Hermione sees in him..

All in all, this is just so satisfying a fandom to read. So many different genres. AUs, Highschool fics, Fluffy marriage, Time travel, Reunion after years, and *cough* some of the best smut I've read so far (recommodation: King by Amber Greene, I swear I shivered when I read this.)

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Faramir x Eowyn

These two, on the other hand, are very different as far as I can see. Sure, they are both quick-witted and their jests find their way into their speech - albeit MUCH more subtly, and sometimes, more intelligent. I personally love this somewhat moer mature relationship. The thing that drew them together may not seem clear at first - and I admit that the first time I read it in canon Return of the King, I thought it was just the author doing matchmaker and pairing off the Unloved.

Now I see there is so much more to them. They have such similar pasts and sorrows, and (if I haven't remember wrong) Tolkein had included Eowyn was like Faramir's mother, sad but beautiful. Then there is Eowyn's crush on Aragorn, and how, Faramir ranks just a tad bit below the King. A somewhat evil setting, if you ask me, but great as angst material.

Their personality also fits each other's. Both are born high-ranked and leaders; while Eowyn is strong-willed and determined, Faramir is more considerate and prudent, and, aw, don't you just like the gentlemen? He is probably the only one who can understand, and has enough patience (and LUVV of course) to cure Eowyn, and she him too, since in my opinion, he needed a source of light and a reason to live for.

So yes, I am officially a fan now ^^;;

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Okey, need sleep now, or else pimples will crowd my already crowded face.
Which is bad.

All I Need is You.

Well, it's not like the line is not common enough, but I somehow noticed it in the context of Nickleback's Saving Me.. (a wonderful song by the way, just can't get enough of it tonight lol.)

Anyhow, the point is, I just realized whoever says this has to be lying.

As humans we have essential needs, namely oxygen, water, carbohydrates, protein, vitamins and the likes. Therefore, it is inaccurate to say all somebody need is somebody else. The correct way to say this should be, "Aside from all the building blocks of life, all I need is you (an optional "baby" may be added depending on the time and spce.)"

But, extending the discussion with myself, I find that this would imply that the speaker has a very pathetic life, where their self-esteem, family, friend, joy, will to live, and whatnot all originate from one single person.

Scary heh? Muahaha.

Anyway. I shall stop babbling and return to work now. Thank you for your patience.